Hello all and happy Sunday, the end to another wonderful week. I hope all of you had a good week as well. For those of you who have been following my blog and those of you who have just tuned in - I am still on my quest to get my body back in shape in order to do a solo scene. I have continued my regime filled with ass kicking in the morning and a dose of thunder at night. Ok, it is not all that dramatic, but I am still working towards this goal and enjoying it more and more each day. It is not just the end result of that I enjoy, but the process as well. I like having purpose when I go to the gym. It gets a little monotonous when you are simply going through the movements. I also did an interview with Vince Lambert on Saturday. I have interviewed with him in the past and find him easy to talk to. This makes for a good interview. I imagine this is why he has done so well for so long.
Now, since constantly talking about myself can get boring (I know that you are all saying “no way” ha ha) I thought that I would shift gears on this post. My mind was consumed by one thing today. This was a dream that I had that caught my attentions on several levels. Now, I want to preface all of this with the fact that I am no Sigmund Freud, so my interpretation of my dream, or thoughts about the dream, may be complete mumbo jumbo. I simply found myself engulfed by it and though I would share. I would like to get your take on it as well.
I will start with the dream. For the sake of the blog, I will abbreviate. I am not sure how I got there, but I was outside of a building that, to me looked like a school. The school was older and single story. Oddly enough, I think that I have seen this same building in another dream. The school seemed like it was being used for a business, but I could not tell what kind. The business itself seemed very relaxed. I walked around the building and found a truck trailer, one of the bigger ones. There were about twenty people hanging out in this trailer, some of them I felt I knew and one that I knew for sure. His stage name was Puma. He danced at a club I worked at in Seattle when I was about 19. After recognizing him I immediately felt comfortable with the group in the trailer. We started talking and shooting the shit as anyone would do. After few minutes of this, Puma stood up and stated that he was sick of my crap and wanted to fight me. Before we go on, two things are important here: 1. I have never been in a fight and do not believe in violence as an answer or solution to any conflict, big or small. 2. Puma was a nice guy. I never had any issue with him. I told him that I did not want to fight him and whatever the problem was, I was sure that we could work it out. He persisted and finally attacked me. I tried to stop him by grabbing him and bringing him to the ground, where I would hold him until he calmed down. It seemed like a quick struggle with me stopping him without problem.
Now, this is where it gets interesting. Once the struggle was over, everyone started telling me how they could not believe that I had just beat up Puma. Puma had apparently known karate and was not easily beaten. I kept telling them that I did not beat him up. I just wanted to stop him so we could work it out. I told them that violence left nothing resolved. Things at this point got hazy and I moved on to the next point in the dream where I was in court for this struggle. The judge was saying that I had allowed this fight to go on and that I was at fault. I had tried again to explain that he had attacked me and that I only wanted to stop him so we could resolve our issue. Puma was there and said nothing. The dream continued on with me slowly losing everything because of this act of violence. I lost friends, family, trust that people had in me, money, and much more until I finally had nothing and was devastated. This all was the result from me, in a sense using violence.
This dream stuck with me all day because of how that situation, and my reaction to it, set off a chain reaction that had destroyed me. In my head, during the dream, it was the fight that I had entered into that had brought all of this on and if I had chosen a different solution, I may not have lost everything.
Now I have a lot of dreams, but not many force me to ponder them for very long. This one did. Let me know your thoughts, Also, there is no picture on this post, but check out Vince Lamberts article. I sent him a new one.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Clay Maverick-Biggest Loser 2
Hello all and welcome to week two of the Biggest Loser Porn Edition. I have not only improved my physique this week but I have also learned another valuable lesson. This is how to spell “loser.” Thank you inspector13. It is hard to have a name that is used for branding if it is spelled wrong, Ahh, but nobody is perfect…or am I? Just kidding, or am I? Ok let’s end this juvenile game and move on. I would like to start this week’s blog off with another correction, which was pointed out to me in my blog comments (I do appreciate this. No joke). I had stated that I was rejected by Falcon Studios. I was actually rejected by Colt. They are a part of Falcon and by habit I lumped them together. Ok, now that we have taken care the only errors that will ever hit the electronic pages of this blog, lets get down to the goods. As you see, I have placed new pictures. The workout is going great. I am loving this challenge. Other blogs are reading this blog and have posted some great stuff and I have some new interviews that are just about in the bag. We are on roll.
This week has been hell on the war front of my workouts. I have moved from a medium pace to a supersonic pace. I am supersetting and giant setting most everything. I am leaving no more than 30 seconds between sets and am ending each exercise with 2 sets of 20 just to make sure I have done myself right. This routine started out as a means to get my body in shape. This is the case however - I have re-discovered a long lost feeling that has impressed on me an overall feeling of youth and rejuvenation. When I was in seventh grade, I used to walk from the junior high school to the high school in the small town that I lived to meet my brother. I met him by the high school weight room. I went in this weight room one time and knew that this was my path. This was the first passion that I felt in life. I read books and learned about Arnold Swartzaneger. I knew at this point that bodybuilding was for me. I don’t want to get to much into this now as I will discuss it more in the book, but the feeling and drive I have now feels very similar. I am thankful for this. It is funny how seemingly random events create new paths.
During this week I have also read some new blogs that have picked up on my little experiment. Although all were great (French one. You are the best. Please God, fly me out there), Queer Porn Nation had a great comparison spread. I did not put the pictures on this blog, but you can check theirs out to see. There is a series of four pictures. The first is a very lean and ripped me compared to now. The other was a more buffed me in comparison to now. The comparison pictures are from this site. Ok, if I end up in court I am going to call them fat burners. The first picture (not logger looking) was during my powder days. What you see is the Hollywood diet. I most likely have been up for 3 days and have had all of a bag of M&M’S and an Odwalla for good measure. The second picture (logger) was more what I would look like with food and water. I still have a friend in the industry that I stay in contact with. We talk on the weekends. We were talking about this and it turns out that he had the same issue. It seemed that people thought that we were in better shape and looked better when we were high. I find this amusing as hell because this is when we were physically and mentally at our worst. I will definitely get more into this in my book, as I am sure that there is a trend here.
Hint: Look at the gigantic eyes. I am not that excited to be there.
Flashing to the future: Man Hunt and Vince Lambert are willing to do interviews with me. Both are great. Both are unbiased and excellent writers. I am both privileged and thrilled to do these interviews. I will speak with them as soon as I can and place the dates on my blog.
I would also like to thank everyone for tuning in. Even though I am no Bon Jovi, it is nice to know people are listening. Cheers!!!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Week 2 Biggest Looser Porn Edition
Hello and Merry Sunday. As stated last week; I have been turned down by Falcon. Because of this we are all going to go through the process of getting back into porn shape. I can say that this past week has been a blast. I love a challenge and this is a perfect one. For the past year I have been Power lifting. This means low reps high wights. I have changed my workouts to super sets, higher reps and higher intensity. I have also begun riding my bike back and forth from the gym. This is 6miles. It feels great. I will be bumping the intensity and aerobic up next week.
I will also send the attached pictures to Falcon. One has my Zoolander Face. I am a model, right? I told them about my project and that I would send pictures each week. All they need to do is let me know when they see one that works. When it will happen no one knows. Exciting!!!!
I am also coming up on my first appearance on August 5th at Mickey's in LA. This bar is great. I am both excited and nervous as this will be the first appearance back. This is the start of a whole series of events in my life and I am excited about this endeavor. The fact that people are reading this blog and following me on Facebook is great! It gives me confidence and is much appreciated.
PS the book is going well. The first chapter will be out on the July 30th. I will reveal the the meaning of the Butt Rocker, Floor Waxer and the trashy talk show.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Moving Blog to Sundays
Hello All,
I am finding it difficult to get to my blog on Saturdays. I will now be posting every Sunday. This gives me more time and allows me to put more thought into it. Happy Saturday and see you all tommorow.
I am finding it difficult to get to my blog on Saturdays. I will now be posting every Sunday. This gives me more time and allows me to put more thought into it. Happy Saturday and see you all tommorow.
Monday, July 5, 2010
4th-Cont.
Hello,
I apologize for the delay. It is the holiday weekend and I am lacking in motivation. I will continue from my last preview blog.
In writing the book, which comes out on Amazon on July 30th" (shameless plug), I was told that it would be a great idea to do a solo video in order to make my face fresh within the industry. Well of course I thought this to be an excellent idea as I was going to touch myself in impure manners any ways. I contacted Falcon, whom I have done videos with in the past. They told me that they would love to add be to a film that they were shooting in September. I was told to take a picture and send it down. Well, I thought this to be no problem. I had my partner take a quick picture just standing there, assuming that all would be good. I sent the email down, with the picture and got this response
"Clay,
Thanks for sending in the new photos. Unfortunately I’m not confident you would be able to get your body to the point it needs to be for a solo this Summer. Keep working out and contact me again when you feel you are in tip top shape and ready to be shot again."
My first thought was of amazement. My second thought was; wait I minute, this could be true. I looked at my picture and laughed. I was a bit puffy and the photo was of me standing there like a bum. After a good laugh at myself I thought, ok, you can not post anymore pictures until you are firmed up. This is of course sounded vain and ridiculous pretty quickly, plus, I love beer and cigars and there are priorities, right?
I thought this to be a great opportunity...hold on, this is a blatant lie. The idea I had was only partially mine. A posting on my Facebook asked how people got into porn and how we stayed on top. My situation seemed to be a perfect example of the process of getting back in. So it has been said, so will it be. I am going to post my pictures as I go, no waiting for the good ones. We can all go through the process of getting back into the industry together. This will be fun. I vow that I will make this happen in 30 days. Let’s see if this holds true. I have attached picture of week 1 to this blog.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
4th
Hello Blogos World,
I want to first say that I am pushing my blog forward to tomorrow. This is due to my holiday procrastination. I feel no shame. I was going to write the blog around 10:oo am. This was but a pipe dream. I have shamelessly widdled my day away.
I will however give you a preview of what I am going to talk about. A question came across my site that asked how we porn folk get in and how it is we stay on top, .or not. Well.... Great timing; 2 weeks ago I took a photo to send down to Falcon for a scene. The response to this photo was "Clay,
Thanks for sending in the new photos. Unfortunately I’m not confident you would be able to get your body to the point it needs to be for a solo this summer. Keep working out and contact me again when you feel you are in tip top shape and ready to be shot again.
Impossible!!! Am I not the hottest thing to hit the planet earth? Well I took another look at the photo and it is true. My god I am getting older and have to cut down a bit. Yes I know, I am as amazed as you. Ha Ha. As heartbreaking as this is, it is a great segway into how we porn stars get back into the industry. I vow, in 30 days I will be the sexy bastard I once was. Check in tomorrow to read the story and my master plan. A hint...it will not include my old Hollywood diet (cocain,burritos,pot and vegetables)
I want to first say that I am pushing my blog forward to tomorrow. This is due to my holiday procrastination. I feel no shame. I was going to write the blog around 10:oo am. This was but a pipe dream. I have shamelessly widdled my day away.
I will however give you a preview of what I am going to talk about. A question came across my site that asked how we porn folk get in and how it is we stay on top, .or not. Well.... Great timing; 2 weeks ago I took a photo to send down to Falcon for a scene. The response to this photo was "Clay,
Thanks for sending in the new photos. Unfortunately I’m not confident you would be able to get your body to the point it needs to be for a solo this summer. Keep working out and contact me again when you feel you are in tip top shape and ready to be shot again.
Impossible!!! Am I not the hottest thing to hit the planet earth? Well I took another look at the photo and it is true. My god I am getting older and have to cut down a bit. Yes I know, I am as amazed as you. Ha Ha. As heartbreaking as this is, it is a great segway into how we porn stars get back into the industry. I vow, in 30 days I will be the sexy bastard I once was. Check in tomorrow to read the story and my master plan. A hint...it will not include my old Hollywood diet (cocain,burritos,pot and vegetables)
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